You and me, why are we living in retrograde
Loving me, losing me, driving without a break
Going full speed ahead never without a fight
Running red lights
Running red lights
Oh, Oh, no turning …
[Chorus]
Trust issues got me being cautious
Not friendly – niggas rolling swishers
Do I wanna hit it – not really
Blood in the streets for any one of my niggas
I’m ridin solo – …
[Hook:]
I’m kissing styrofoam
You know what I be on
Thats what I be on
She know what I be on
Who know what I be on
Thats what I be on
Baby move along
I keep moving …
He’s still driving that 1970 hand-me-down truck
And he’s still wearing that red and black jersey
Waiting for the band to start up
He’s still showing up twenty late, finding hearts and rules …
You know I’m gonna hit it on the radio
You know I’m gonna put it on my video
I know you gon’ be turning up the volume
I know you wanna split me …
When it went down,1 it was so hard to breathe2
I gave up everything, and I fall, fall down to the floor3
life was escaping me, I couldn’t find myself
’til it was all lost, not anymore4
I’m holding on to all the pieces of my heart’s debris,5 ’til it’s time
I’ll…I’ll pull it together and fix myself eventually,6 I know it’s mine7
I found gold in the wreckage,8 put it in a necklace9
keeping it ’cause I, I know that it’s mine
I wear it like a message, so I don’t forget it10
keeping it ’cause I, I know that it’s mine
I know that it’s mine, no matter what I do,
I know that it’s mine, whether I win or lose
and even though my heart needs to take its time,
I know that it’s mine, I know that it’s mine11
Facing the change, but it’s still tough to see
at first I fought it all, I was so mean
I’m still unsure, how it’s supposed to be
I’m taking every day now by the skin of my teeth, until I learn12
I’m holding on to all the pieces of my hearts debris, ’til it’s time
I’ll… I’ll pull it together and fix myself eventually, I know it’s mine
I found gold in the wreckage, put it in a necklace
keeping it ’cause I, I know that it’s mine
I wear it like a message, so I don’t forget it
keeping it ’cause I, I know that it’s mine
I know that it’s mine, no matter what I do,
I know that it’s mine, whether I win or lose
and even though my heart needs to take its time,
I know that it’s mine, I know that it’s mine
I found gold in the wreckage, put it in a necklace
keeping it ’cause I, I know that it’s mine
I wear it like a message, so I don’t forget it
keeping it ’cause I, I know that it’s mine
I know that it’s mine, no matter what I do,
I know that it’s mine, whether I win or lose
and even though my heart needs to take its time,
I know that it’s mine, I know that it’s mine13
“When it went down” means “when we broke up.”
It was not literally hard to breathe. Phoebe Ryan just wants her listeners to understand that the break-up was not easy on her.
Phoebe Ryan felt like the break-up was her “rock bottom.”
Just as things seemed to be so terrible, Phoebe Ryan chose to be resilient.
“My heart’s debris” indicates that Phoebe Ryan’s heart was shattered. Now she’s trying to “collect the pieces.” In other words, she’s pursuing healing.
Phoebe Ryan maintains optimism about healing, however long it may take.
“I know it’s mine” means “I own my own heart.”
“I found gold in the wreckage” means “I struggled to turn a bad thing into a good thing.”
The necklace is metaphorical for remembering what one has endured.
Struggling to find healing is a constant battle. Phoebe Ryan is determined not to forget that good can be derived from tragic circumstances.
Phoebe Ryan finds comfort in the fact that her heart is her own. Regardless of her situation, whether good or bad, she is comforted by this idea.
Phoebe Ryan acknowledges that she may need to learn a lot to move forward. This stanza indicates that she takes some ownership for her hardships.
Generally, this song is about resilience in the face of hardships, especially after a heartbreak.
2 user explanations and meanings
Charlotte
I believe this song is about someone having their heart broken and needing to take some time to themselves before they can jump into another relationship. Like “I found it in the wreckage” being as she found herself again after losing herself. Then “I wear it like a message, so I don’t forget it” like she wants to make sure it doesn’t happen again.
Anonymous
To me I believe that this song is about a girl who has broken up with someone and her heart has been broken but is starting to pick herself up after it all for example ‘I found gold in the wreckage’ to me I think she is trying to say that even though her heart was broken it is still made of gold and when she says ‘I wear it like a message’ it seems like she is trying to tell herself the break up wasn’t her fault and lastly she says ‘ cause I know that it’s mine’ her heart is hers and nobody can take that away from her